Is there anybody out there?

Just noticed that I could compose this in 'Wingdings' why did MS include that as a font in anything? I think that one random day a week should be wingding day. All emails, docs, spreadsheets and power points should be created in wingdings. (Oh and don't tell anyone...)

Now on for some more serious stuff. First I have to thank Page for recommending a great book - "The Power of Full Engagement". http://www.amazon.com/Power-Full-Engagement-Managing-Performance/dp/0743226747
I look forward to our further discussions.
I recommend it to everyone, regardless of your chosen profession. It talks a lot about managing energy rather than time and how to do it. A couple of posts ago I talked about the how there are different parts and needs of whole body. This book addresses that. I am going to completely over simplify one of the concepts, but I think its something every one can use.

The authors talk about defining your core values. I think we all have values, some are included in our religious beliefs, others are values that we came to this earth with and some are values that we develop or nurture over time. One of the values I am trying to become more passionate about is self care. One of the things these guys teach is that to help stay true to your values is to ask your self, as you are making a decision, 'how does this serve my core values'? I have been trying this out and it works well (when I man up and ask the question.) Try it...

So I have another thought that I would like to share. Sorry for the length, but hey its my blog... I have a friend who was recently diagnosed with a potentially fatal brain tumor. He is a couple of years younger than I, a father of three, a great husband, hard worker, super intelligent and talented, and to top it all off he is a fellow Ute. Like most others that I know that have or are fighting or a have lost to this nasty c word, he has thrown all that he has to win the battle. I don't want to make light of what anyone else has gone through to overcome their afflictions, but Rich has flown cross country, a couple of times, to meet with specialists in KC, Cambridge MA, and SLC. They moved their family to SLC so they could be close to familial support and world class treatment at the Huntsman Cancer Institute.

So how does this fit in to Josh's blog about loosing weight?? I have a potentially fatal condition as well. I don't need to take radiation or chemo treatments, I don't have a plethora of pills I need to take, I don't even have to have painful operations to help me with my battle, and the worst part of it all; the condition I have is of my own volition. To beat this I all I have to do is eat right and get off the couch. If I were battling cancer, I know I would do the same as Rich. Why is this so hard?

I am 185...

Tonight

The Biggest Looser is back on for a new season, and another reminder that I am still large and in charge. I realised today that I am really lazy. One of my weaknesses is donuts. I don't mean cream filled, maple bars, long johns, Bismark's, or sprinkled. I mean good old fashion sour cream (cake) donuts. (I do have to admit that I do enjoy a good apple fritter now and then, but since leaving the PacNW I have not found one that is worth the calories.) So today, I was craving a donut, this is not the first craving lately I have had, Saturday was a good donut day at the HEB. So I planned on stopping and grabbing me one and perhaps a chocolate milk or Diet Coke, cause they both go well. But then I decided it was too much hassle and I could not get myself to do it. Not because I thought better of putting fried dough with sugar in my mouth, but because I was too lazy! That is sad.

It was college football opening weekend. These weekends have become a bit of tradition round here. Nothing gets done, and my buddy Kyle does it up right. Its like thanks giving over there, and who can diet on thanksgiving. The sad thing is there is never a good time to diet.

So I am going to say it again and again, I will continue to work at this, its still hard but I am going to make it.

More drible

So once again I am reporting a little less success than I had hoped. Some of me is in denial mode, another part is in i could give a hang, and there is another part that is saying why cant you stick with this?

So I will continue to be honest in the fact that I have a motivation issue and like to eat yummy food that is unhealthy for me. I am reading another book that has inspired me...

So here is a something that I do every night. I lay in bed and visualize my self running freely. thin and fit. Arms like Vin Diesel, abs like Matthew Mcconaughey, and a chest like Daniel Craig.
I mean I feel it. My heart races, and I get nervous, like just before a race, and I feel the power driving in my legs and freedom that comes with running, it is awesome. I drift pleasantly off to sleep, with the full intent on getting my ross out of the sac and do it, really get after it. Then morning rolls around and I am sleeping good, and feeling the nice fan, the and the soft pillow, Xander comes and I put Sponge Bob on and I come up with some excuse....
MAN!

At least I only weigh 185... (I should say lbs in case my positive thinking is on the metric system and converted it to kg)

Go Brandi Go

So today has been an interesting day of reflection and what ifs. It was the first day of school, I heard that a very good friend, fellow Ute, and just all around great guy has a potentially fatal brain tumor, and well I read Brandi's post. (Brandi is one of the coolest chickas I have ever met, oh and she is my sister-in-law).

So check the texashinze.blogspot.com for the back to school stuff. To my friend, I am putting out the positive vibes, prayers and best wishes for you and yours. Brandi you rock... I am right there with you. I will raise you one though. I think I have decided to not only let it all out there, but also put up some not so HOT photos... unless there are some huge objections then I will just block you, or if there is too much humiliation for my poor wife, then I wont. Maybe.

I have not had such a good day as far as the eating goes, again my exercise consisted of walking to and from the car... Not so good. (No Popsicles nor the accompanying brain freeze...)

I am still 185...

Day 1b

So it started out a good day. I got up with the intention of getting in a workout today. Got to work had me some yogurt and grape nuts. YUM and filling. Bummer I found out that the yogurt I was eating had tons of sugar... Like 28 grams, in a 4 oz cup. A can of soda has like 30 so I am going to have to find a substitute...
For lunch I had a lean cuisine panini, it was great. For snacks I had about 5 - 10 raw almonds. which are awesome.

We then went to the school for bring your minutia of "supplies" and see your desk, join the PTA and get ice-cream. Well I stood for in line for ice cream, everyone that knows me knows that I love ice cream, I had to have one so I settled on a drumstick and it was delicious. Then being the first man of the GOE PTA, I had kid duty again including dinner. Everything I suggested was met with kid anger. I was hungry and they were too. I did the ultimate dad thing, although I typically come up with some pretty creative dinners that make into the Hinze dinner repertoire, I went to McDonald's for some dollar menu items. Out went my good day of eating. A double cheese and a spicy chicken san later...
I did drink about 80 oz of water.

Oh and I did not do any exercising, except for the walk to and from the car at the school. On the way back to the car, Xander decided he was done with his rainbow-pop. So I did what every dad does, finished it. Only I put the rest of it in my mouth. As usual, my eyes were bigger than my mouth and I got a doozy of a brain freeze. You know the kind that make you dizzy and you think you are going to pass out. Too make things even a little better we ran into an former colleague of mine's wife and two kids. There I was trying not to pass out from the brain freeze and talking with a lost acquaintance. I am sure she thought I stopped for happy hour before I showed up at the school.... ah well

Part Duex

It is with contrite spirit and humble heart that I write this. I have not been following the rules that I have set for myself regarding this part, or any other to be perfectly honest. It is difficult sometimes to own ones personal short comings, but I as I am finding out, loosing weight and becoming physically fit is not just about the physical aspect of ourselves. We as humans are more than just physical beings, and there is more to our beings than what is presented in physical form. We are spiritual, we are emotional, we are physical, and we are temporal.

All of these things have, for the lack of a better word, needs. If one (or more) of these things are out of line, then it messes with the other things. It can be difficult to find harmony in all those areas. I think the reason there are difficulties is that there are external forces that are working against our inner selves, to keep these areas out of line.

Now what does all this have to Me loosing weight?? Well I will be attempting to bring my inner being into harmony. The Japanese have a word for it, "Wa", its like "Harmony" only it does not seem adequate. Anyway, I will be using this to track my progression into not only weight loss and whatever else falls out.

I still will be working on my diet so I will focus mainly on this here. However there may be some fall out. Just to reiterate here is my plan:

• Daily work outs cardio and resistance.
• Keep calorie intake to between 1500 and 2000/ day. I will adjust as needed.
• Keep a food Journal.
• Stay focused on the end goal, by creating and meeting short term goals.
• Being positive.

I am 185...

Its been awhile.

Hey Ya'll....
Its been a while since I have taken the time to write. I definitely need write more. My goals have been out the window for the past month and a bit. I have noticed that it makes it a big difference in keeping focused. I have been trying to work out more, I will admit that its been more like once or twice a week. Not nearly as much as I would have liked it to be.

Something else that has been good, is that at work a couple of others have been eating better and working out. Right now I am re committing. I will eat healthy I will work out and I am 185.

Stay tuned for more growth or not....